My Emergence
Updated: Sep 2, 2021
I get asked a lot of questions about ThetaHealing®️. Most people have never heard of it, so I do my best to explain what it involves and how it can dramatically improve their lives. However, I am always left feeling like whatever it was I said, it wasn’t enough. A simple definition of the ThetaHealing process cannot adequately reflect the impact this modality can have on a life. In order to understand that, you would have to know what came before. You would have to be able to understand one’s journey. Only then, can you really recognize their deliverance and celebrate their victory. |
So allow me to offer you a small glimpse into my journey. Perhaps then, you may be able to understand how this modality has helped open up my life, how it helped me receive and experience greater love, peace, and joy than I ever dreamed imaginable.
The Before
My life was not filled with the carefree stories of being young, seizing life, and living in the moment. No, my life as I recall it was more hiding in the corner and trying not to get in anyone’s way. I had resigned myself to being an observer. The limelight felt too dangerous. All it did was put me in the line of fire and I had no interest in getting hurt. No, I was in hiding, because what people didn’t know was that I was being hunted. I first noticed it when I was little; this energy crept just outside of my own, waiting for its opportunity to attack and cripple me. That it did. My once happy childhood was eclipsed by moments of trauma that seemed to cast a shadow over all the joyful memories. I blamed “the hunter” and I was angry as hell. I had learned to always be on alert; waiting for him to make his next move. The anxiety I carried within me was constant. Somewhere inside of me, I believed that if I could sense the attack, if I was ready for it, I could stop it. However, no matter how hard I tried, no matter how cunning I thought myself to be, I never saw it coming until it was too late. His strike was always brutal, always crippling. I was forever his victim and nothing was ever in my control. No matter what I did or who I became, the results would always be the same. I began to fear that this is all my life would ever be and that my life would end before I ever had the opportunity to truly live it.
So dramatic, I know, but this was really what it was like in my head.
"The anxiety I carried within me was constant. Somewhere inside of me, I believed that if I could sense the attack, if I was ready for it, I could stop it. However, no matter how hard I tried, no matter how cunning I thought myself to be, I never saw it coming until it was too late."
I remember reading a lot of different books, always looking for some sort of salvation. I couldn’t be the only one to have gone through this. Someone wiser than me must have found a way out. I started studying different belief systems and religions. I found it all quite fascinating and would find moments of comfort within them, but nothing stopped the sensation of feeling stalked. Whenever any disruption of normalcy took place, my terror resumed.
I went to therapy. Heck, I went to a lot of therapy. It honestly did help. Over the years I was able to resign myself to accepting things as they were, and learning how to live with them while moving forward. Maybe that’s all some people need? I tried to find happiness in that, but to me, it still felt empty. No, there was something I was missing. Something I was being denied and it was The Hunter’s fault. He didn’t pop up quite as often as he once did, but he was there. He was there stealing the joy of my present moment, by making me fear what was to come. I was angry, frustrated, tired, and beginning to lose hope.
ThetaHealing
I had this friend Daniel who I’d known for most of my life. He had recently immersed himself into the world of ThetaHealing. I wasn’t quite sure what it was, but I definitely noticed that he became uncomfortably positive and optimistic. I was happy for him. He seemed to have this love of life and possibility. That was Daniel’s life though. Good things always seemed to happen to Daniel. He wasn’t cursed like I was. He wasn’t being hunted. Over our years of friendship, he would always try to help me by sharing anything of substance that he had learned. He had come for a visit and wanted to give me a ThetaHealing session. I found myself quite resistant to it. He was making my problems sound so simple. We could just remove them and then everything would be just rainbows and roses. Sorry, but life didn’t work that way for me. I had tried for years to make myself better and nothing worked. Telling me that he was going to “take away my belief” was certainly not going to do anything. Thanks, but no thanks. I was cursed and there was no saving me.
Then the pandemic hit. People were losing their lives and jobs. This spirit of doom seemed to loom and my anxiety spiked again. I was reading about people I knew and cared for contracting COVID. I heard about friends and friends of the family dying from it. I started to feel myself spiraling into depression. Was I next? Was The Hunter closing in on me? He had to be. Would I survive this?
One night, I said a prayer before bed for God to help me. I needed a way out. I needed to know what to do. I couldn’t continue to live my life this way. I begged for deliverance; for salvation. That night, in the midst of a perfectly ordinary dream, a voice interrupted. It was so commanding. It wasn’t particularly loud, but all the action from my dream stopped so it would be heard. It told me to, “Do what Daniel is doing.” Then, my dream resumed.
I do not remember what my dream was about that evening, but the words I heard left an impact.
This wasn’t the first time something like this had happened to me. I lived a life filled with weird experiences. There were times when people who had recently passed on would come to me in my sleep and give me messages. They would ask me to do things for them or just let me know they were okay. There were times when I actually met God in a sort of alternate reality within my dreams. He sat down to talk to me, letting me know that I would be okay and that I was watched over. Those conversations seemed to always proceed some traumatic event in my life. There were moments when I would walk into a room and feel other beings present there, as well as instances when I just knew something scary was about to happen. These types of occurrences weren’t new to me. My experience with them had taught me that a message received should never be ignored.
So that day, I had texted Daniel and I told him, “God told me to do what you were doing. What are you doing?” He replied, “ThetaHealing.” I guess I was doing this. He informed me that there was a class, Basic DNA, that I could take. It would teach me the ThetaHealing modality. It was being offered online for the first time ever. I had the strong sensation that this class was what was being referenced in my dream, so I told him to let me know when this would happen and I’d do it.
In the meantime, he had been broadcasting live on Facebook each week and I did my best to attend them all. Each segment involved a meditation, which I struggled with. It was hard for me to visualize everything I was told to imagine. I couldn’t seem to connect the way I was supposed to. I couldn’t see this light inside of me. Maybe there wasn’t a light. Maybe I was broken.
"I recognized that I had a lot of limiting beliefs regarding what I would accept or allow myself to receive. So I made the choice to clear those beliefs."
One day, during the meditation, I closed my eyes and, in anger, I commanded that I be able to see my light. It then just suddenly appeared. I saw it. I not only saw it, but I felt it too. It wasn’t a nice pretty white ball of light. It was a huge ball of fire. It was massive and powerful. It was moving and expanding and growing. I thought to myself, “This can’t be it. Can it?” Then, I had an actual vision of myself as Phoenix (from X-Men Apocalypse). I could hear James McAvoy as Professor Xavier yelling at me to let go. “Let Go”. So I commanded myself to let go. I felt this powerful energy rush through me. I felt for the first time ever able to ascend to the Seventh Plane. I felt myself experience this rush of love that came from standing before the Creator. It was the most incredible feeling I had ever felt. I then experienced a tidal wave of messages. I found that the Creator had so much to tell me. Things were being explained to me in a way I never before could possibly understand. I found it hard to remember everything I was being told. When I left the plane, I needed a few days to wrap my head around what the heck just happened. I practiced “going up” a few more times afterwards, with similar success, but nothing quite matched that first experience.
I enrolled in the Basic DNA class when it was offered. It was a lot to process. There were some really strange concepts introduced to me and, to be honest, I wasn’t quite sure if I was willing to accept it all. As the course went on, I recognized that I had a lot of limiting beliefs regarding what I would accept or allow myself to receive. So I made the choice to clear those beliefs. Wanna hear something crazy? It turns out it was that simple, because I began to open myself up to more possibilities, and my life truly began to change.
The After
Since that first class, I have taken every ThetaHealing course offered at The Provocative Intuitive. Each class offered me a new insight into who I was, what was holding me back, and how I could best pave my way to a better future. I felt like a brand new woman. I am no longer waking up with anxiety coursing through me. I am no longer hunted. You see, that “Hunter" was nothing more than an energetic manifestation of all the poisonous and embedded beliefs I had formed about myself and my life over lifetimes. The Hunter was of my own creation, and once I removed the beliefs at his core, he unraveled. How badass am I? I am a powerful force that all potential “hunters" live in fear of. It’s okay though, I won’t ever meet them. You see, I decide what I will allow into my life. I make choices, better choices for myself. My home is a place where love and joy are cultivated and celebrated. It feels freaking fantastic. My relationships with my children and husband are constantly flourishing and deepening. My friendships, which are more selective now, have grown more dear. I now experience my life on my own terms; operating from a place of power. I view the world through a lens of compassion rather than victimhood. My quality of life is astounding, and it’s just the beginning.
The ThetaHealing modality is a gift, one that has allowed me to open doors and truly see who I am. I am understanding myself and all of my crazy life experiences. I am seeing myself differently and as a result, I am loving myself more fully. I have learned that the more love I show myself, the more parts of me open up; and the more I open up, the more deeply I connect with the Creator. The Creator, God, shows me how special I am. How unique and beautiful I am. I see my gifts and my strengths, and I’m able to experience myself in a way that often leaves me in awe.
"I am no longer waking up with anxiety coursing through me. I am no longer hunted. You see, that “Hunter" was nothing more than an energetic manifestation of all the poisonous and embedded beliefs I had formed about myself and my life over lifetimes."
Each morning I wake up with a heart full of gratitude for the doors that ThetaHealing opened in my life. I continue to use the modality daily as a way to connect and channel the love, light, and energy of the Creator to all those around me. I also continue to heal myself.
I know without a shadow of doubt that this is what I am meant to do. This is what I was created for. Maybe this is what you were created for as well? I won’t pretend to know what goes on in your life or what struggles you face on a daily basis. What I do know is that the human experience can be a challenge. Pierre Teilhard de Chardin said, “We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience.” We need to accept and embrace the spiritual side of us. We are not defined by our life experiences. We are who we are, who we always were, who we were created to be. ThetaHealing helps me remember every day who that person is.
Love and Light to All!
The Provocative Intuitive has amazing programs and classes offered to truly enrich your life and overall state of being. You can join us each morning at 8:45 am EST for Daily Downloads. It’s a powerful way to set intention to your day, harness the energies of the universe, and deepen your spiritual growth.
If you feel called to learn or expand your practice of this modality in your life, I would encourage you to take the ThetaHealing courses. There is an order in which you must take them, so if you do not see the class you are looking for, please feel free to reach out via email so we can assist you.
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If you are looking to take your current training to the next level and truly discover who you are as a healer, I personally offer a ThetaHealing Mentorship program. For more information, you can email me at: rebecca@rebeccasheehan.com